Compliments to CynaraJane for the new layout, it is totally Far Out. I had been wanting something different for a while, yeah, my space/alien theme was cool, but in all actually I am a Space Pirate... not an astronaut or an alien. Cynara and I kicked around some ideas and that is what we came up with (I give full credit to here however, it was her imagination that brought my idea to life.) So... whaddya think of it?

When I look at you it is like seeing
you for the first time, I am overwhelmed with those familiar
butterflies that you inspired when I first saw you. Every touch you
give me, however innocent and slight, sends chills through my body
and I tremble in joy beneath it. Your voice is comforting and
reminiscent of a warm breeze, and your smile is as appealing as
sunshine, warm and soothing. I would be remiss if I did not mention
your snuggles, it is like being wrapped up in warm cotton sheets and
a fluffy down comforter on a lazy Saturday morning. How deeply I take
joy in you, the depth of it you may never fully be aware of. When you
enter a room I give you that “look” because I missed you so much,
even if you had only been gone for a moment. You see, in my heart
that moment lasted an eternity. Why? All my life I have waited to be
close to a treasure as beautiful and as breathtaking as you are, why
would I want to part with such a thing, even for a moment?

You are my happy thought. When I am
having a rough day sometimes the only thing that can make me smile is
the thought of you, it uplifts my spirits and gives me strength to
press on, despite all of the hurtles I must jump. Because of you I
know I won't be jumping those hurtles alone, I know that you will be
right there beside me supporting me along the way, know that you are
not alone either. I am going to do my best to love you and support
and make you happy, may God give me the strength to do so.

I thank God every night for you. As we
lay there, when all the lights are out and we are there
beside each other, I hold you. As I am holding you in my embrace what
you don't know is that I am praying in that very moment that God will
allow me to love you forever and I thank him for the time he has
allowed me thus far. There would be no pain likened to the pain I
would feel if I lost your love. You are not my everything, you are
not my world... but you are my love, my inspiration, my happy
thought.. I don't need you in my life, I could live without you, but
I don't want to. I want you there beside me forever, I WANT you. You
do not complete me... you just complement me so well. I love you,
thank you for being who you are... because you make me a better me.

Love always and forever,

Your Wife-To-Be

While poking through my fiance's room (well, "our" room actually) trying to find something to do, I came across a stack of books. I love to read and I had been eying that stack o'books for a while. I went through them in an effort to find the one that appealed to me the most, I found a book by John Gray, the author of Men are from Mars, Women are from Venus. I've never read that book but I thought I would give this one a shot. Men, Women and Relationships, interesting enough for a title, why not, you know? What really prompted me to read it was the recent argumentative disagreements that my fiance and have had lately. Nothing big mind you, the only problem has been with how we both deal with disagreements. I want to talk them through right then and there and he wants to withdraw until tempers cool and we can actually "talk" without raising voices and attitudes. It really pisses me off when he doesn't want to talk about it when the problem arises and it really pisses him of when I do. We've never gotten into a yelling match, we haven't ever really had a "heated" argument... just disagreements. Nonetheless, disagreements are still stressful. So, we were looking for ways to better understand and cater to each others needs...

I haven't been reading this book long, I'm only on the fiftieth page. Between Xanga, life, a fiance and children, I haven't had a lot of time to read in the last couple days. So far in the book it is talking about the ways men and women think and how we make mistakes in relationships by treating our spouse like he/she is a member of the same sex as we are. Lets say that there is this couple, Patrick and Jennifer. Jen and Pat get into an argument and Pat walks away, because that is what he does as a man and he thinks he is "respecting" Jens space. But Jen would never walk away from a loved on who is upset, she finds that inconsiderate and disrespectful and since Pat has now walked away from her she is now even more upset. Jen follows and tries again to talk through the argument and worsens Pats mood because all he wanted to do was to be left alone for a while. All Pat was trying to do was give her space and time, because that is what HE needs when he is upset. all Jen was trying to do was express her feelings and talk about what is bothering her, because that's what SHE needs. Get what I'm saying about worsening something by treating your spouse like they're the same sex? (read pages 20-21)

These differences between men and woman can be explained by the male and female brain:

"Cell numbers: men have 4% more brain cells than women, and about 100 grams more of brain tissue. Many women have asked me why men need more brain tissue in order to get the same things done.

Cellular connections: even though a man seems to have more brain cells, it is reported that women have more dendritic connections between brain cells.

Corpus collosum size: it is reported that a woman's brain has a larger corpus collusum, which means women can transfer data between the right and left hemisphere faster than men. Men tend to be more left brained, while women have greater access to both sides.

Language: for men, language is most often just in the dominant hemisphere (usually the left side), but a larger number of women seem to be able to use both sides for language. This gives them a distinct advantage. If a woman has a stroke in the left front side of the brain, she may still retain some language from the right front side. Men who have the same left sided damage are less likely to recover as fully.

Limbic size: bonding/nesting instincts - current research has demonstrated that females, on average, have a larger deep limbic system than males. This gives females several advantages and disadvantages. Due to the larger deep limbic brain women are more in touch with their feelings, they are generally better able to express their feelings than men. They have an increased ability to bond and be connected to others (which is why women are the primary caretakers for children - there is no society on earth where men are primary caretakers for children). Females have a more acute sense of smell, which is likely to have developed from an evolutionary need for the mother to recognize her young. Having a larger deep limbic system leaves a female somewhat more susceptible to depression, especially at times of significant hormonal changes such as the onset of puberty, before menses, after the birth of a child and at menopause. Women attempt suicide three times more than men. Yet, men kill themselves three times more than women, in part, because they use more violent means of killing themselves (women tend to use overdoses with pills while men tend to either shoot or hang themselves) and men are generally less connected to others than are women. Disconnection from others increases the risk of completed suicides."

So that explains why woman have an easier time verbally expressing their emotions, they have a greater ability to use both sides of their brain at the same time. I do recommend you read Men, Woman and Relationships... It really is pretty cool. =)

I came across theblackspiderman blog and found this!

Dats me!!!

XANGSTA FO LIFE!!!

Read his blog.. you gotta!

I found this on davesdaily.com, I thought some of these were just plain cool... it totally catered to my dark sense of humor. Hahaha I thought number 2, 4, 7, 8 and 10 were awesome. Because of my loving nature I thought I would share this list with you... Have at it.

1.
Revenge on a dirty roommate - using a hairdryer blow flour or powder
under their door to give everything an awesome white coat...

2.
Revenge on a neighbor - write a nasty message on your target's lawn in
weed killer, they'll never get rid of the bald patches...

3. Revenge on anyone who doesn't live with you - put gelatin down your target's toilet, in a few days it'll get solid...

4. When your roommate goes away, water his/her carpet and sow mustard and cress seeds for a lush shag pile...

5. Revenge on a neighbor - replace weed killer with plant food - they'll curse their green fingers...

6. Float unwrapped chocolate bars and toilet paper in your neighbor's pool...

7.
Get as many alarm clocks as possible, set them for different times
throughout the night and hide them in your roommate's room...

8. Fill your coworker's umbrella or coat hood with hole-punch confetti, or even better four for a sudden blizzard...

9.
Take your friend's bike, get a ladder and raise it over a lamppost so
that it passes through the hole in the middle of the bike frame. Hide
and witness their frustration...

10. Take your boyfriend's
favorite clubbing shirt and use an ultraviolet pen and write what's on
your mind, under any black light your message will appear...

11. Revenge on golfers - put dog crap in golf holes...

12. Make up elaborate flyers for a wild party at your enemy's home and wait for the guests to arrive...

13. Place a singles ad with your ex's phone number in newspapers and websites...

14. Subscribe your enemy to every form of junk mail you can lay your hands on, the more embarrassing the better...

15. Subscribe your ex to all sorts of weird sex magazines but send them to his neighbor's...

Another cool site to check out is WierdDomatic.com... Get some good office prank ideas!! =)

My fiance introduced to this awesome website called ICANHASCHEEZBURGER.COM. I know, it sounds like some kind of new age diet.... well it's not. It's a website that hosts comedic pictures for your viewing pleasure. People fin pictures and caption them... for example, here are some of my favorites!:

    

It inspired me to use my imagination and come up with some of my own to submit, here are my creations!:

 

Awesome huh?